Wednesday, May 14, 2025

Will It Make Any Difference?

They were sitting on the rooftop, the city lights stretching far and wide, blending into the night sky. The air was thick with words unspoken, and the usual chatter between them had turned into a fragile silence.

She broke it, finally. "Will it make any difference to your life if I am not there?"

He looked at her, caught off guard. It wasn’t just a casual question; it was one that could fracture the fragile line they had been treading. He hesitated, not because he didn’t know the answer, but because he didn’t know if he could say it right.

She didn’t look at him. Her gaze was fixed on the sky, tracing constellations that seemed to slip away as soon as she found them. "What am I to you?" she asked, softer this time, almost as if the question was more for herself. "What do I mean to you that will let me stay vested?"

He had always been the one to joke, to laugh, to make things lighter. But tonight was different. He felt something shift inside him, a tremor that made his words feel heavy and uncertain.

He swallowed. "You are... the pause in my chaos. The reason I look forward to the end of a long day. You’re that one message I wait for, the one story I want to hear before I sleep."

She still didn’t turn to him, and he wondered if she was hiding tears or just processing his words. 

A moment passed and she finally looked at him, eyes glistening, and he could feel the weight of her silence pressing on his heart. He wanted to tell her that he was afraid too, that sometimes he doubted whether his presence mattered to her.

"Do you know why I ask?" she whispered, almost afraid of his answer. "Because sometimes, I feel like I am just another chapter in your story, not the story itself."

He smiled faintly, reaching out to take her hand. "You’re not a chapter. You’re the pages. You hold everything together, even the messy parts. And I’m scared too. I’m scared of messing this up, of not being enough for you. But I know this—I wouldn’t be the same without you. You’re my story."

Her lips curved into a soft, unsure smile, the kind that didn’t quite reach her eyes but was trying. She squeezed his hand back, as if reassuring herself more than him.

They sat there, the night around them slowly settling into calm. There were no more questions left, just the quiet acceptance that love, messy and unpredictable as it was, didn’t always come wrapped in certainty.

Sometimes, love was just two people on a rooftop, holding on, unsure if it would make any difference—but desperately hoping it would.

In a World of Desires and Little Things

They met years back. It wasn’t planned, just one of those moments when lives collide, and you don’t realize the impact until much later. Back then, he didn’t understand her—not really. He thought he did, but looking back, he knows he was just too naive to see it.

They would talk every night, their conversations flowing like an endless river, comfortable and familiar. But the rhythm faltered, and the calls fizzled. One night, he called her one last time, not knowing it would be the final one for years to come. He didn’t say anything—just listened, waiting for her to say something that would make it all clear. But she didn’t. He whispered a dismal “sorry” before hanging up, not knowing how deeply that moment would bury itself in his memory.

Years passed, and they took different paths, each moving on—or at least trying to. Then fate decided to let them cross paths again in the city of dreams—Mumbai, nonetheless! The spark was still there, no longer hidden beneath the debris of time. They fell into place, like puzzle pieces that were never truly separated. But this time, the reality was harsher. Her marriage was fixed, and he was left with the cruel irony of realizing that she was always the one for him.

They now spend their days together, riding through the city, sharing stories, and creating memories, as if clinging to the present can defer the inevitable. They’ve confessed to loving each other despite everything. He doesn’t push—she doesn’t pull away. They exist in that fragile space between love and loss, knowing it’s fleeting but too desperate to let go just yet.

She doesn't open up much, which occasionally bothers him. Even today he wishes that she would be open up more, just as he had wished for her to be all those years ago. After all, he knows she’s the one. The only one. He lied about not remembering their last call all those years back. Said he was drunk. The truth is, he wasn’t. He remembers every second. He just wasn’t sure of his own feelings back then, and a lot was happening around him, leading him to believe that it was just something fleeting. Immature, yes, but not reckless. He knows it now. He never chose someone else over her; they simply drifted apart, despite being blamed otherwise. And that’s the regret that gnaws at him the most—that he made the mistake!

He tells her now how he feels—unfiltered, unguarded—because time taught him that holding back only leads to heartache. She listens, her eyes betraying the storm she holds within. He knows her too well now, knows that even if she doesn’t say it, she feels it just as deeply.

And he, knowing how helpless he is in this situation, just wants her to break free from all the shackles and be his, because he knows she can. If it were in his hands, he would fight the whole world for her.


Friday, May 9, 2025

Some Stories that Lasts Forever

He looked at her, eyes brimming with stories that only she could understand. They had met just three months ago, but countless late-night conversations had built a world of their own. Today, they were driving together for the first time, her childlike joy at every curve and bend echoing through the car.

"Pahaaar!" she exclaimed, pointing out a distant hill, her face lit with innocent wonder. He couldn’t help but smile, feeling his heart swell as the music played softly in the background—a playlist curated with her in mind. It was the first time they were hearing songs together, and somehow, the melodies seemed to mirror their unspoken thoughts.

They didn’t talk much—just let the silence envelop them, punctuated by her giggles and his quiet glances. He loved how her presence turned his restless thoughts into a calm river, flowing effortlessly despite the undercurrents of their uncertain future. He could sense her hesitation, too, but in that moment, none of it mattered. They were just there—two souls seeking refuge in each other’s warmth.

The city lights flickered in the distance, but he barely noticed. His world had narrowed to her voice, her laughter, and the way her fingers played with the ends of her scarf. Despite knowing their paths were destined to diverge, today felt eternal. As the sun dipped below the horizon, he knew they were just two souls, intertwined for a fleeting moment, finding solace in each other before life pulled them apart.

And in that gentle dusk, as the world faded around them, they realized that some moments, no matter how brief, would last forever.

Tuesday, May 6, 2025

The One She Never Forgot


The late April sun filtered in gently through the lace curtains of her old Kolkata home. The scent of sandalwood incense lingered in the air—comforting, familiar, like an old friend who never left. She sat on her cane chair by the window, draped in a cream saree with a faded rose print, her silver hair tied into a loose bun. Her hands rested softly on her lap, frail yet graceful, as the echoes of laughter from her grandchildren rang through the house.

There was something comforting in their laughter, something haunting too. Every now and then, the boy would glance at her and smile — a smile so familiar it ached. The girl had his eyes — not her son’s, not her daughter’s — his!

She wasn’t always “Dida.” There was a time when she was just Ananya—headstrong, curious, and quietly hopeful. And once, just once, she had been in love.

It was a time of long drives along tree-lined roads and evenings that stretched lazily into dusk. He would arrive outside her PG on his old motorbike, helmet slightly tilted, smile even more so. Arjun. The name still sounded like a poem left unfinished. He had this calm about him—the kind that made you forget the world, the deadlines, the chaos of everything that didn’t matter. They shared sunsets on quiet hillsides, cups of tea at roadside dhabas, and stolen hours in the warmth of bookstores and dimly lit cafés.

They never had labels. No love letters or dramatic confessions. Just shared rides with the wind in their hair, conversations that ran deeper than the sea, and the silent promise of something real—something that didn’t need words.

But life—life has a way of choosing for you. Her family made plans she couldn’t undo, and responsibilities arrived without knocking. She married a good man, raised a beautiful family, and learned to love the life she built, even if a part of her remained elsewhere.

Still, on winter nights wrapped in her shawl, with the old radio humming in the background, she remembered.

Years passed. They never wrote. Never called. But Arjun lived in the quiet of her thoughts like a warm evening—never forgotten, always felt.

Just last year, someone from an alumni group mentioned him. He was still around. Never married. Still teaching. She didn’t know whether to smile or cry. So she did both.

Now, as her grandchildren crawled into her lap and demanded bedtime stories, she held them a little tighter. Not because she regretted her life—she didn’t. It had been full, meaningful, real. But somewhere deep inside, a question lingered—not of “what if,” but of “what also could’ve been.”

The kids yawned and rubbed their eyes, the day’s mischief finally tiring them out. She rose slowly, knees mildly protesting, and led them to their room. The boy curled up first. “Tuck me in, Dida!” he grinned. She obliged.

“And me too!” said the little girl, already tugging at her blanket.

She bent and kissed their foreheads, brushing away imaginary strands of hair from their sleeping faces. Her voice was a whisper, barely heard.

“Goodnight, June. Goodnight, Aryan.”

And as she turned off the light, the names echoed gently in her mind. Aryan. June.

Aryan. June.

Arjun.

“I hope you’re well, Arjun. I really do.”

And somewhere, in a quiet town where the roads still curved beneath banyan trees, a man sat on his veranda reading a tattered book. He looked up at the moonlit sky, smiled to himself, and thought of a girl with fire in her eyes and roses in her hair.

She stood still in the hallway, the darkness wrapping around her like an old scarf. A small, bittersweet smile played on her lips.

Maybe life had a strange way of reminding you of what you never had — and sometimes, of what still remained.

Not in photos. Not in letters.

But in laughter, in names, in the quiet love that lives on long after the world forgets.

Saturday, May 3, 2025

The One Who Couldn't Be

He had always kept his heart guarded, hidden behind laughter, sarcasm, and the quiet understanding that people leave. That’s just how it had been—everyone he’d loved had eventually chosen another path. But then she arrived, soft-spoken and curious, with eyes that held galaxies of warmth and uncertainty. And for reasons he could never quite explain, she saw through him. She peeled away the layers gently, like someone handling something sacred. It terrified him—how easily she slipped into his life, how quickly he began to need her. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. He wasn’t supposed to fall this hard.

They weren’t a perfect pair—not by any stretch. But their imperfections fit like puzzle pieces that had been waiting for each other. In her presence, he forgot to overthink. He remembered how to breathe, to laugh without looking over his shoulder, to imagine a future where he wasn’t alone. She would talk about her dreams, and he would listen like it was scripture. She’d call him in the middle of the night just to tell him about something silly, and he would smile into the darkness, pretending she was right there beside him. He never told her how much he’d started to believe that she was the missing piece of everything.

But there was another man. Someone who came with less uncertainty, more approval. Someone who looked better on paper. And while she never said she was choosing him, life has a cruel way of showing you the things you’re powerless to change. He wasn’t afraid of losing her because of a lack of love—he knew she loved him in her own way. But circumstances, expectations, and timing were relentless enemies. And he could feel her slipping, one delayed reply at a time, one less shared story, one more mention of "maybe it’s for the best."

What tore him apart wasn’t jealousy. It was the helplessness. The fact that he knew he could make her laugh when no one else could. That he could hold her through every storm if only he were allowed. That he would spend a lifetime keeping her safe, if only she chose to stay. And yet, he found himself stuck in a loop—longing for a hug, aching for closeness, haunted by the image of her with someone else.

Each day he carried that ache, folding it into his quiet routines, talking to her in his head when he couldn’t reach her in real life. He didn’t want much—just to hold her once, to feel that everything was okay. But the universe was silent. And so he waited. Not out of desperation, but out of love. The kind that doesn’t demand or chase, but just is. Constant, aching, and unbearably real.

All he wanted—more than answers, more than closure—was a hug. A simple, silent hug that could hold his broken pieces together, even just for a moment. He longed for it in the quietest parts of the day, and most desperately at night when the loneliness screamed the loudest. That hug, he thought, might be enough to remind him that he hadn’t imagined it all… that what they had was real. And even if the world took her away, he could carry that one memory like a heartbeat in his chest.